I used to wait and want for a lot of things
I longed for adulthood as a kid; was painfully impatient about growing out my bangs; believed that if I just did this or that, I’d be better off.
Always seeking that next thing. Waiting for the chips to fall. And thinking that veering left or right would bring me to a better path.
But what a robbery that kind of existence is.
We tend to place very little value on right now and perhaps too much on “the shiny future”.
We tend to move when things become uncomfortable. As Pema Chodron so eloquently put:
“Scrambling for security has never brought anything but momentary joy. It’s like changing the position of our legs in meditation. Our legs hurt from sitting cross-legged, so we move them. And then we feel, “Phew! What a relief!” But two and a half minutes later, we want to move them again. We keep moving around seeking pleasure, seeking comfort, and the satisfaction that we get is very short-lived.”
The resolution we get when we shift to find comfort or peace or success only lasts so long. And then we find ourselves right back where we were: in the right now. In the present.
But being present is hard. Being present requires looking at what has happened with peace and looking at what’s to come with no assumptions.
So if you’re searching for peace through waiting, longing, or avoidance, stop.
Enjoy just where you find yourself and I promise you’ll find it. Continue reading